Finally I am back, the real me – strong, confident, positive and unique. No more breakdowns, sufferings and sadness, just moving ahead and enjoyment.
So here it is – 1 months of new life, new challenges and struggle.
4 missions completed – SURVIVING, CREATING CONDITIONS, STABILIZING OF EMOTIONAL STATE, and ADAPTATION.
Lots of things happened during this month.
Accomodation. First 2 weeks I was desperately travelling from one house to another with my backpack while searching for a new perfect house. Cant express how tired I was and miserable. But in the end I moved – moved to a jail. But the worst thing is understanding that you cant change it inside – you can just adapt and accept or just take a risk and go away. So after 2 weeks suffering in a jail, I just escaped from there to the desert coz there was nothing there, except of 4 big rooms and 4 balconies. But it was still better coz it was mine.. nothing similar to a real home but MY home. Most of my friends didn’t understand that.. my decisions, my actions, but how can they do if sometimes even I don’t really understand myself, just live, just experience and experiment.. This is who I am – sometimes extra positive, sometimes complaining a lot, showing my emotions, being strong and crying, fighting and giving up, loving so much and ignoring, being adult and child at the same time… difficult to understand..
The good thing in all this situation was a great person I met and I shared my difficult time with.. It is strange – you meet a person you absolutely don’t know, but after 1 hour you understand that something amazing will connect you in the future – friendship. I was looking for such friend in this country for so long. So now she became my flatmate and good friend. Finishing about accommodation – now we have pretty home, real HOME with everything and everybody we need. Of course some efforts to find furniture, clean and make it cozy, but we are happy now – its our little world. We are 4 there – Yota (super active wonderful greek girl), Dida (lovely, perfect cook and great Tunisian girl) and Zied (little crazy, strong and funny Tunisian guy) and me sharing our new life together.
3 of August 2012
Well, sınce my blog temporarıly ddoesnt post my thoughts, so I ll be writing here and load it later with lots of new information.
When you say yourself - I ll write half of the post today and the other one later – don’t believe it.. I know myself, I can lie very well, but unfortunately only to myself, the others can easily understand it.
So the main thing I was about to write – about feelings ‘ *it, of course I didn’t and during those 2 weeks so many things turned upside down. It strange my mood changes every day, every hour, new crazy, sometimes stupid ideas come to my mind. And actually now everything is mixed in my head – either because I almost didn’t sleep last night or because of the mixed feelings, god knows..
