Strength

29 of April
Today was much better, much more=))
Firstly, I was thinking only about the right decision, to make this RIGHT decision or not, but I absolutely forgot about responsibility that this decision will bring. But when THAT day came the panic overcame me, I was so afraid of coming events and future year, that couldn’t even tell a good inspiring speech, my hands were shaking and there were only “WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHY? I HAVE DECIDED EVERTHING!!! WHY DID I DO THIS STEP BACK?” in my head. I even voted against=))
Then there were 2 days of absolute doubts, I didn’t want to talk about it, to think about it and to tell to UA about it. I was in panic, in PANIC!!!!
It was the hardest decision in my life, really, the hardest. I was asking everybody, trying to find support and advice. And I had it. Thanks to all ppl who believed in me and supported.
I still think that I am crazy, but I started to understand that it will be the best experience in my life, the best present to my BIRTHDAY=)))
And why today is special? Probably, because I started to enjoy my new position. I really hope for the best. I am really sure that with this team (to be frank, team of my dream) we will bring our LC to the top. I want to see it.
Though now it’s a bit hard for me, I still feel the present of a small wall between me and team, but it’s rather my wall, I need to enter their family and don’t let Kuzmenko to quit=)))
I really hope that their wish to work with me was sincere, because it was one of the reasons to be an LCP.
OH MY GOD!!!!!! I am an LCP!!!!!!
I am looking forward to leave this year=)))